I maintained well paid, successful jobs and most people thought things were ok but I could not go more than a few days without a drink and once I started I never knew where and when it would end. I felt like I was the only person dealing with this and did not know what was wrong with me.
I have been sober and free of drugs since 2018 and had been gradually getting better then slipping before that for many years. Today my life is awesome, I have freedom, I am not alone and I can choose how I want to live my life. I split my time between managing tech companies, coaching business leaders, keynote speaking and going on endurance adventures.