I drank for 30 years.
As a teen, drinking was fun because it was new and forbidden. I drank with friends in the woods and in our parents’ basements.
In my 20s it was how I socialized. Drinks after work. Nights out at bars. Boozy Sunday brunches.
In my 30s my drinking became “adult” and “civilized”. Married with children, I drank wine out with friends and at home to unwind after a long day with the kids. Most of my friends’ drinking slowed down during this time. Mine amped up.
In my 40’s drinking stopped being fun. I drank every night. It was not about socializing or unwinding. I felt like I was on a ride that I couldn’t get off of. Everything seemed fine from the outside but inside drinking was making me miserable.
I have been sober since August 1, 2020.
Sobriety has given me back my confidence, my health, a sense of gratitude and the ability to experience true moments of joy. I am a better mother, wife and friend. When my head hits the pillow each night I feel thankful for who I am and what I have. When I open my eyes each morning there is no longer that sense of dread or regret.
Not drinking has given me a sense of freedom to be myself and experience life in full colour.