It can be easy to hide a gambling addiction. Have another tab (or five!) open on the computer at work, make a sly bet on the phone and of course I would have two computers running at home. Gambling felt really good, I loved it. It gave me so much and to be honest I was operating a relatively normal life. I was working in a good job and was close to my friends and family. But my gambling controlled me. It became my number one priority, I couldn't function or think without a having a bet (or ten) in play. I loved gambling because it took away a pain in me. That pain I can't write here. But sometimes the thing you love you have to leave. It's hard to do but I did it and i know you can too.
My life today? Well, I still have stuff I'm working through, i think we all do. But I have been clear from gambling for 8 years and am so proud of that. Not because it was a hard thing to do, and damn i know it's hard, but because I am as certain as I can be that nothing is in control of me. I'm happy to talk about any part of my life with you but Arli isn't about me, I want to hear about you. What do you want to talk about? Where are you at with your addiction? And how can I help?