Aged 18 years I ‘remembered’ I’d been sexually abused between the ages of 5-10. I told my family & saw a therapist only briefly. I married in my early 20’s & whilst traveling for work, I became promiscuous, drank & smoked increasingly & the marriage ended.Scared of being alone I had many relationships until I met my 2nd husband.
The co-dependency, alcohol & smoking addictions worsened as I raised our kids mostly alone, was a stressed ‘yes’ person, overworked, with zero self-care or healthy boundaries. Until, I had a profound awakening. My soul literally forced me to STOP! After time spent in deep reflection I began parenting my inner child, she’d never truly been seen or heard & step-by-step was able to release the shame, & forgave myself.
I’ve been living an authentically empowered life or 5 years.
My freedom journey took 30+ years as healing’s a process, surrender & embracing forgiveness takes time.
There isn’t one reason why we find compulsions, relationships & life overall a struggle, our accumulated patterns of behaviour, karma & beliefs are generational & not all our making. We must be kind & patient as we strive to make wise & conscious choices.
Life’s not about achieving perfection, we can only truly do ‘our personal, authentic best’, take responsibility for who we’ve become & own our part in the creation of this day.