For most of my life I guess I felt like an impostor never really knowing who I was, never feeling like I really belonged and always searching for where I fit into this world.
That was except when I was playing or involved in soccer. Soccer was the only real place where I felt like I could be myself, where I felt worthy, where I felt good enough , where I felt significant and valued.
It wasn’t until I had a knee reconstruction and hung up the boots at 26 that my life started spiralling out of control. I really noticed the void that soccer had left and the pain of disconnection, and the toxic shame I had towards myself.
I was partying regularly, taking amphetamines, drinking and smoking weed every day to sooth and escape the pain. From the outside I looked like I had it all together but on the inside, I was depressed and falling apart. I would look in the mirror and only see a fraction of the man I used to be. My life changed the day my partner passed away and I sat there contemplating suicide. I chose life and to live it to its fullest. I invested in a coach and I have never looked back.
I have been sober now for 6 years. I’m totally connected with my heart and soul where I feel whole, worthy, loveable and I am enough. I have unconditional love for myself and know that I matter for who I am. I live a passionate and fulfilling life that is aligned with my heart and soul and my values. A life where my addictions have no place anymore.
I am surrounded by people that are like-minded, or as I like to say, like-hearted and like-soul, where I can be unapologetically me without fear of judgment. People that encourage me every day to be the best version of myself possible.
Every day is a blessing where I’m honoured to be able to help, inspire and empower people to heal their suffering and overcome their addiction so they can step fully into their power and live a passionate and fulfilling life that is aligned with their heart and soul.